love, love.

A friend of mine's daughter started Kindergarten last month. A big transitional time for any kid, any family, and so far their transition has had the relative ups and downs that are to be expected. More ups than downs, but regardless, he started adding a little bit of predictable fun into the morning routine whereby they run around the playground together for a few minutes before he kisses her goodbye at the classroom door. Occasionally the fun also includes a bit of a race and of course, my friend lets his daughter win. Just the other day, however, she looked up at him after the race and said, "next time let's hold hands so that it will be a tie." Insert audible, heart-warming sigh.

What she said struck a chord with me. First off, I love the demonstration of compassion and desire to include her dad in the win, and secondly, let's be honest - that's damn smart for a five year old to come up with the idea that holding hands would be the perfect strategy to prevent one person from winning, which means you would tie, which means the fun will be fair. I like this little strategic, yet compassionate thinker. I like strong-willed girls who have ideas. Bravo! Ever since my friend told me the story, I also can't shake the analogy of it. The idea that when you love someone, you don't always want to win, that sometimes you'd rather hold hands and tie.

I'm a tennis player. Tennis is a sport that goes in and out of fashion and currently it's back on the rise, which honestly I have mixed feelings about. When a sport like tennis (that requires very specific playing surfaces, weather protection and equipment) gains in popularity, there is an increased demand for courts and time, and this can ace out people who maybe can't afford it or who don't have the time or wherewithal to navigate the complicated lottery systems, waiting lists, etc. I am not naive, I know how tennis is perceived in many circles, but it drives me crazy when it is considered to be a "rich kid's sport." I grew up classically middle class in a small town. We could not afford the local private tennis club, so I learned how to play tennis from this quirky, energetic and talented young guy who offered lessons out of a converted apple warehouse. It. Was. Awesome. I loved it! In order to get on the (one) court, you had to hit a ball up against the smooth concrete wall 100 times with only one bounce, or you had to start over until you did. That was only the start of the crazy, competitive drills we feverishly endured, and we genuinely loved it. He put us into regional tournaments and these scrappy kids that came out of the warehouse typically fared pretty well. In the summers we moved to the public courts by the community college and came home sunburned and sweating, with iced towels around our necks. He really believed in competitive play. He believed that we would learn more about how to win by playing as many matches as possible, reminding us that all the technique in the world couldn't give you a "W" without strategy, experience and mental toughness. He drilled into us that each match is like a new start: Love, Love. Each time we stepped on the court, it was anybody's game.

Over the years I've had some memorable moments on the court. I had a drag-out 2-1/2 hour match where I ran to the back fence, jumped up to reach the ball with my racket, and proceeded to slide down the hard grey cyclone with my face as the buffer. I once played a Japanese duo that didn't speak any English, but grunted "YUH" every time we served. Yep, when we served, not them. I totally McEnroe'd it one time when my ex slammed an overhead into my shoulder — surprised we didn't get divorced right then. Conversely, in another match, I hit my partner in the back of the head on a serve, which required her to get an MRI. Thankfully not until after our win. I lost a mixed doubles match to a guy who used a wooden racket...no, not in 1978, in 2008. I've played with a sprained ankle, a sprained knee, a sprained wrist, one contact missing, a bloody toe, blisters, overused muscles and even a plantar's wart right in the middle of the ball of my foot. That required about six Advil for the pre-game warm up. I nearly always have at least one intentional racket drop per match - just for self-deprecating, bad-shot comedy - and I'm known for the basketball-esque bum pat after a quick strategy talk with my partner. I played a singles match on Court One against a girl about 15 years younger than me and endured her family cheering at every winner, which was nearly every point because she was creaming me. And one time in a tournament, I was losing badly and a girl who was a much better tennis player, yet my peer, kept mouthing to me "popcorn feet, popcorn feet!" which is the grade-school term for "keep moving." Humiliating and ultimately...didn't work.

I've had dozens of razor-thin wins and losses, great excitements and frustrations, gallons of Gatorade and beer, varied partners, courts, clubs and coaches and it continues to be one of my passions. I still play competitive tennis today. I'm a marginally above-average player with a decent record and I'm known to play hard, develop solid on-the-spot strategies, talk a lot of self-promoting and deprecating smack, all while scrapping my way through some solid match-ups. Sounds just about like my personality summed up in one sentence. I am often an evangelist of the sport - wanting to win, but loving the camaraderie of the sport and still glowing even after a loss. The things that I learned in that drafty apple warehouse are still true today and of course the ideals spill over into my personal and professional life. That's what happens when you invest in anything in your life, right? I feel lucky and grateful that my mother sought out that coach so long ago and it's no wonder that I can still smell the faint scent of fresh-picked apples when I walk on a court.

Tennis aside, we are a competitive society. I'm of a competitive generation and I'm also the product of the 1970's/80's ideal, "women can do anything." I am admittedly competitive with myself, wanting to always have that internal voice (and let's face it, my mother) say that no matter the outcome, I did my best. That I came onto the court highly optimistic with grounded confidence — Love, Love.

So what I love about the story of my friend and his daughter is that I think it can be a hard thing to balance a strong, competitive, confident spirit with compassion and empathy. With the willingness to try hard and develop skills, but also love the game and want to invite others to join the fun. That there is much to be gained just for showing up. And life is the sum total of all of our experiences, right? No doubt my friend's daughter will play sports, or be in the school play, or enter an art contest, so the opportunity to continue to develop these skills will continue throughout her life, but how fantastic that they exist for her today? So I applaud my friend for doing what many of us forget to do - stop, take the extra ten minutes and be present for our kids in a predictable and meaningful way that is clearly giving her an opportunity to demonstrate the complexities of her developing personality. It means something. And in turn, his daughter is learning more than just that her dad loves her, or to outrun him, she's learning that it's great fun to see him with her at the finish line. And all before the bell even rings...love, love.

Oh and by the way, my daughter is learning to play tennis in a converted airplane hangar.